Maa NANI Mein tujhe kaise bhul jau

After seeing two deaths one is of my close friend and other is of my beloved NANIJI, i am unmoved by my feelings and also trying to console myself that life is different what we think it to be. What we want is what we may not get, what we think is what may not be a reality, so it is better not to be prejudiced by this world and live your life with love for others. This is what we all lack. We may be feeling proud on our status but not understanding that we are a living putla..i realized dis when my mother cried with great grief and said that she (my nani) came as a living portal and going as Putla. hey nanu can i please share ur grief .. please give me a chance may be i can do something.. but i know a lost love cant be brought back. You had many desires den y u went so early. Now who will make sweet achar for me, who will make the loss good that has happened to NANAJI, who will think about the marriage of ours, where shall we all go for blessings, i am unable to find an answer... when i think of you all memories flash and make me realize that you are here with me. May i get a chance to bring you back if i can give you some of my breath..hey u r my blood, my breath, my life and an excuse to live life.. please come back...come back .. we r waiting.. love u n miss u.. cant feel separate from u.. gud bye and a bid farewell to u my SENIOR MOM....